I say I've learned this, but that might not be certain (hey, another part of ptsd!)

Today I told my T about how guilty I feel because I will play computer games for hours in a day. The topic came up because I am basically "brain dead" from assisting in a volunteer event over the weekend... mostly all brain work...and I have a fog.

What I realized is that this time, my unconscious has been able to figure out mind maze games IF I don't THINK about them but just do them... but IF I think... nope, my conscious mind is in a terrible fog.

I recall that I use certain games often this way, when I am overwhelmed etc... (still the guilt.)

My T told me this is a good thing to do! He's sorry I feel guilty because I need to reframe the idea into a coping mechanism... and that it is a good thing for those with PTSD to do... help keep the mind away from the day to day overwhelming stuff, and use it to process.

So I had found a mechanism that is useful for coping with PTSD and didn't even know it! Here I've been feeling guilty all this time!