Is there a chance that the people who are there for you don't need you to be different? That for them, despite the hurt, you are enough.

You can't keep a job, clean the house etc...so what. Every day you wake up and you deal with all of this ****, over and over. That's what counts. You are still here and still fighting, and for now I would say that's all you need to do.

I know this is the internet and we have never actually met, but what I see is someone who is definitely not no good. You are supportive and caring of so many people here. You have helped me out a lot, someone who is "no good" wouldn't care enough to do that.