I'm sorry you feel this way. But please, don't say those things you mentioned - in fact, you're quite the opposite I've never met you in person but I think you're a kind, caring, intelligent person. Those things you are unable to do aren't your fault - you're not the one to blame And there are still a lot of people who are near you despite everything, and they do that because they know that you're an amazing person! You're a good person, leigheas. Please, keep that in mind.