Thank you all for the support
It is still too close and unfathomable..I am just frozen in shock and denial and despair..I know eventually everything will stop spinning, and then I will be able to see a path forward... but right now I am still just struggling to breathe and make it to the next day. I know my system is strong and resilient. This life has beat me up in every way possible...He is and always will be the love of my life. He is my home. I never thought i would ever be without him. It is too unreal still...it's gonna be a very long road.
I am so grateful to be part of this community and to every member here who supports one another.
I'm really very isolated in life.. Everyday that I have spent time here at PC I am thankful for
I don't remember what or why;but bless my luck for randomly stumbling onto this site!
Thank you all so much again
I'm sure I will be crying all over the place in the foreseeable future...please let me know if I become absolutely intolerable :/ I will try to keep the pity party to a minimum.
~Scarlett♡☆(lost)