I am up and getting ready to go to work. The new job is fast-paced and can be grueling and I sometimes see a few other people starting to crack under the pressure. So it is kind of amusing that work is supposed to be good for healing as often the kind of jobs someone is forced to take when battling mental issues are the very jobs that would make normal people feel crazy and stressed to the max. I must be faking it pretty well as for the most part the job is going well and I have to interface with tons of people daily and it seems to be going okay -- but I really don't believe "fake it until you make it" is the best strategy as I am barely functioning and barely surviving and this isn't really living, it is just existing. It's not a happy life.