i made a mistake and was jipped 20$ at the store ... that was really bad for me because i guess it was my fault even though the cashier should of not made the mistake...
it wasnt my money so i feel very bad about it...

then i had to face with the reality of having to try to fix it... which i couldn't fix it...
and then had other buisness i had to do... all outside of my comfort zone and not nearly enough alcohol... only had like 3 beers... i should of known it was going ot happen, the next day i was like that...

i just hide, try to lay in bed... away from everyone... sounds... lights... people... stuff... everything.... i get those shocks and it really messes me up... im pretty sure it wasn't withdrawal... just felt like panic... hyper vigilant i guess... hyper aroused...
thats what i get for pushing myself so hard... makes one want to quit, but quiting has never been an option because its out of my control...