Talk to your doctors and psychiatrists - on your own. I see you are in Canada. You are allowed to make your own health decisions including appointments. The results of these are supposed to remain private - unless there is a risk of harm involved. I am guessing this school has a counselor available. Talk to them if you can.

Is there an extended family member you can turn to like an aunt that you trust? Sometimes dealing with our close family members is difficult but a more distant one can be more objective.

Fnally, give yourself the permission to make a mistake. Allow yourself the freedom to enjoy the work rather than master it.

Your healthcare team should be able to help you with the issue with your father.