So, I was just reevalutaing, and I guess the reason I shared is because I feel guilty and I guess I felt if I were to vent, it would be off my shoulders, since I will definitely not tell anyone in my physical, face-to-face life.

Yeah, I came to the conclusion that it is wrong... masturbating is all about pleasing self and fooling around, which are not of God. He holds sexuality as a good time between wife and husband.

Masturbating is just gross to me, and just as bad as porn. If it is not something I would want to share with anyone, it is obviously not right.

SO, great, just back to where I started... being mad at myself and not knowing how to get sexual thoughts off the mind.