Ok, for starters I have been able to move my psychiatrist appointment up to Thursday and both he and my therapist know of my current state.

I started trying psych meds again (after an unsuccessful attempt in my teens) back in July. First I was on Prozac which didn't help my anxiety and made me feel like a zombie. I wanted to sleep all the time, very little motivation to get things done, and still tired. I gave it time, but it never improved, or helped the anxiety. I had read and heard a lot of good things about Lexapro, so I tried that next. I started it November 1st. At first I seemed to have almost no side effects, and when the Prozac started wearing off I felt ok. I couldn't tell if I was getting any help for the anxiety, but I had a lot of hope for it. Well, end of December my divorce was finalized (we've been separated for a year - literally the only change was signing the papers in a mostly amicable divorce). So, two months on Lexapro. I feel like I have gone absolutely crazy since that point. I had a bad suicidal point around Christmas and it lasted much longer than pre-meds episodes (last one being back in May/June). When that started to clear, I started having horrible anxiety and panic attacks. Now...my anxiety level was already pretty severe. I have post-traumatic stress, in addition to some general anxiety, and I've had issues on and off for years. But now it's like it is on steroids. I've had a panic attack almost every day for three weeks now. I couldn't attend the class I planned (switched for another online class) and can hardly make it through work (today I left early hoping a break and rest would help, but it's back again). I'm having constant heart palpitations - even going to sleep, waking up, etc. I've also developed eczema - the last time I had that was on Anafranil. I've cut back on caffeine, I run 20-25 miles per week, I color and play piano, deep breathing, etc.

Would it take this long on the med to see such a terrible reaction? Especially if I had almost no side effects initially? My therapist thinks I'm reacting to the divorce, which certainly may have ramped it up some...but I feel like I'm absolutely losing my mind.

Also, I was on paxil and then anafranil in my teens (anafranil worked for my mom, who has severe OCD) and those didn't work either. I know it can take several different tries, and there are some classes of meds I haven't tried yet, but I'm freaking out about having another bad reaction to another med. I've had severe eczema break out on two different meds (anafranil and now lexapro), and there hasn't been even one med that made a noticeable dent in the anxiety. I'm at a loss and it's taken 6 months and I'm scared of reacting badly to another one.