I'm not sure if I've ever felt good enough for him. Other than I'm the only one (besides a long-distance/online relationship maybe) that's really stayed with him (he was used to others dating him for a few weeks then breaking up with him).

He likely only thinks he's not good enough sexually. I don't think I'm good enough in any way. I'm just afraid he's going to get rid of me as soon as we graduate and one of us (hopefully) gets a job in another state. Neither one of us knows what's going to happen after we graduate career-wise, so he doesn't feel comfortable promising anything. But to me that sounds like he's only with me because he feels sorry for me or it's convenient or whatever. It could just be a fundamental misunderstanding of the reassurance I need. He says he's with me because he wants to be and shows this. But I would follow him anywhere and I could promise that even without knowing the future, but he can't or like I said, doesn't understand the reassurance I'm needing. He talks about the future and as both of us as "we" and I suppose that should be good enough.

Maybe part of this is feeling insecure. But there's no security in our lives AT ALL, so it's difficult to really feel secure about the relationship. I mean, we're not married or engaged and he could theoretically just disappear at any time. But neither of us even know where we're going to be living or how we'll be able to make ends me either on our own or together next year so we're both very insecure in general.

But I'm probably starting to digress...