Please go to your nearest emergency room, NOW. You deserve help because you're a worthwhile human being. I'm so sorry the helpline fell down on the job. Know that you have a place in this world...you may not know where, but you belong.

I know how wretched this feels. Just know that what you're going through is temporary and that you'll come out of the darkness. In the meantime, go where you can be safe until the worst is over. (((((HUGS)))))