Hi everyone, I'm a 16 year old guy and I have been experiencing these intrusive thoughts for a long time now, ever since I could remember. The thoughts range from innocent to completely disturbing sometimes.
See, sometimes I get these scenarios playing out in my head of stuff that has never happened or about people who never bother me. An example is: I meet a new friend. He is pretty cool but he is also friends with my boyfriend. I'm okay with that but then my mind wanders. What if he's trying to steal him from me? What if my boyfriend likes him more than me? What if he is cheating with my boyfriend??
Once that happens, my mind gets more disturbing. I...start
This scenario isn't real, however. Just an example. These thoughts last for minutes to sometimes even hours, depending on how severe they are. But I would NEVER hurt anyone. I HATE when I get violent thoughts like this. But I can't control them. My mind just wanders into them.
Another example, not as graphic: My brother finds my hidden liquor stash. He takes the bottles and dumps them down the sink. I become enraged and grab a hammer, run into his room and start smashing his TV, PC, and Playstation into millions of pieces. Then I walk out and go back to my room.
None of these scenarios never happened in real life, thankfully lol but it's like my mind is playing them out in case they ever do happen. It's like my mind is telling me what to do when I get in those scenarios. I've had many more scenarios, some more graphic than others.
I do wanna keep this post short and readable though so I won't include those. Another part to my obsessions is my boyfriend cheating on me. I know he would never cheat on me, he is wayyy to good to do that but whenever he doesn't reply right away or gets busy, I get these intrusive scenarios that he is cheating in my mind and they don't go away until he reassures me.
He always reassures me and calms me down but still. These thoughts are ridiculous. They come on and off. Somedays I won't get any scenarios. Other days my head is full of them. Sometimes they keep me up at night and I have trouble going to sleep.
So could this be OCD? Do any OCD sufferers on here have similar thoughts like mine? Please help as I really hate having these thoughts happen. Thanks for your help