I realize it at some point in the middle, but I don't realize how I get myself into it. It just happens. I just switch/flip to an auto-pilot mode. I think it's the way my brain deals with being alone and not talking and connecting with others and expressing my emotions. I try to distract myself, but some thoughts are very powerful, especially if I remember something negative/embarrassing. It doesn't interfere with my life in the most part, but as I said sometimes I feel I dissociate and become unaware of my surrounding fully, which could potentially be dangerous.