Thanks everybody. Yes, the important thing is to stay away from the bf. A guy in the hospital said that was the easy thing and I chuckled and nodded my head, no. That isn't easy for me. I was loyal to him the whole time he was in prison. I know I will get lonely. I am sick of AA but that's the only safe place I know right now to make friends and where my support is so I will go back. Just not up to it today. Thanks for all of your caring words.