I assure you that nothing I have claimed about myself is untrue. If my questions and statements seem random and uncoordinated it's because I am not learned in this things. I freely admit maybe using the wrong words to express my meaning. It's hard to formulate yourself perfectly about things when it's the first time you try to do so.

Okay, so you have decided that I cannot be an existentialist because part of my behavior doesn't fit with the philosophy. Maybe I'm wrong then. In your opinion what am I? A moral nihilist? I find that I fit very well with that group too, but as with existentialism, not completely.

This is kind of the reason I had the urge to ask someone actually. I call myself an existentialist because that was a philosophy I thought fit the most. but I am aware that I'm not a text book case of one. I haven't read enough about it to be sure, but the more I read the more I realize I don't seem to fit any philosophy perfectly. What does that make me? A moron? A genius? Or just plain normal? Do you choose your philosophy or does it choose you? Is there a choice involved at all? Do I have to fit with a known philosophy at all in order to have a philosophy? Is it possible to not have a philosophy?

I don't expect anyone to answer these questions as I'm not quite sure most of them can be answered. I am sorry if I have aggravated anybody, this was not my intention. It was just a misguided search to see if there are like minded people somewhere. And as most people here seems either disinterested in or frustrated by this thread, which is understandable as it was probably the wrong place to post it, I will stop posting.

Thank you for your answers and sorry if I offended anyone.