Thank you so much for your reply, Skeezyks. You're right, I should seek help from a therapist. I'm taking steps towards this. My anxiety and depression has held me back from so many wonderful things, and I am finally ready to start healing. My heart/gut tells me one thing, and my mind another. Sometimes I feel like there are two completely different people inside me. I don't know why I am so scared to talk to a therapist. I guess everything new is scary for me. I would have never have thought about finding one that specializes in sexual orientation issues, so thank you so much for that suggestion.