YES, unfortunately Trace it's hard to find a good therapist and I believe you when you say you feel a lot like you do when you talk to your mother because a therapist can lack the ability to actually help patients the way a patient needs them to. I had experienced that myself, our mental health system in this country is severely lacking so it's not just you that has a hard time finding a decent therapist.

It's good that you are doing the research and in that have gained a lot on your own. I have noticed an improvement in you since you first joined. Maybe you are isolating but you are also making it a point to learn about how you are challenged and have access to this site where others can validate and reassure you. I also think you are using the site in a healthy way where you have a place to write out what you are learning and how what you are learning applies to your own challenges.