I'm sorry you're going through so much! Life hits hard sometimes. I'm glad you have a therapist to help you. I've found that pdocs often have a long wait for the initial evaluation for some reason. Best thing to do is make an appointment and see if they can put you on a cancellation list. That way if someone cancels you can get in. But I'm not sure they'll do that for an initial evaluation.

I hope you continue to use your therapist as a resource. Journaling might help as well. Anything to get your grief and anger out.

Welcome to pc. Keep posting it it helps!