I am in "I will die young" mode, not even sure why I bother anymore. Well, at least I will try to enjoy the time I have left (I oddly find enjoyment in things like... winter with actual snow lately) and stay true till the end.
But it's awful way to think.

I spent my early life "knowing" I would be dead by my 33rd birthday ... think messiah ... I really believed that ... and lived my life accordingly ... even when it did not happen it was all I could think about ... not depressed more obsessed ... I lost many years of my life because it was to end soon so what was the point ... after my ip at 55 my life has changed so drastically ... again I am losing years of my life needlessly ... what I am trying to say is to live life to the full ... if you fill your life to 110% when it does come crashing down you will have no regrets ... after all not a one of us really knows if we will wake up tomorrow morning ... cherry thought right ... your young ... live life with every ounce of strenght you can muster ... otherwise you will look back like I have and see all the experiences you missed ... just my 2 cents worth .. Tigger .