So sorry you are having such a hard time. With my issues & OCD this is something that I struggle with as well & sometimes it seems like I'm not going to make it through. You should definitely talk with your T or pdoc to see if they can help you find some relief. Please know you're not alone with this problem & let us know how you're doing
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Bipolar Disorder
Depression
Generalized Anxiety Disorder
OCD
PTSD
Insomnia
Chronic Pain
Prozac 30mg daily
Buspar 10mg three times daily
Propranolol 10mg three times daily
Currently titrating up Lamictal daily
Ambien 5mg prn
Trazodone 50mg prn