I've talked about it.. it took me long so she only suggested me to try to avoid sexual thinkings in other situations but there is no problem with masturbating.. the only idea the comes to my mind now, is that I shpuld masturbate only thinking about heterosexual thoughts.. else I really have no idea what I could do..

What I used to think and seems more clear now is that the few 'friends' I have never really tried to understand my problem and instead tried to make them look great near the weakened myself.. or probably is just anger, but since I don't really trust anybody right now (as you said too) this is how I feel..