I have a severe anxiety disorder. I never leave the house other than for college. I struggle with every day life enough as it is. I can't talk in front of crowds or participate in group work without feeling heavily suicidal and like I am going to die. I try my best though, I've been trying all year.

I don't like the way I am. In fact I hate the way my life is, but I never go to a doctor for support because my anxiety disorder is so severe. I am just too terrified to talk to a doctor.

I have a lot of days off sick due to my anxiety making me feel stressed / sick when thinking about the presentations they expect me to present in front of my class for my grades. It makes me feel so sick that I don't feel able to go into college. If i was to go in and go to my lessons and avoid the one that's causing me anxiety they'd punish me with a disciplinary for skipping lessons.

They told me I have to ring in to college to let them know I am sick. Yet again I struggle with this due to my anxiety disorder. So i get my parents to call in for me because I'm terrified of speaking to someone I don't know over the phone. However today I didn't go to college due to my anxiety and a presentation and the college text me:

"Thanks for letting us know about your absence today due to illness. Your absence can be authorized by providing further detail and evidence of a medical appointment. thanks."

Not only is that impossible because I will never go to a doctor even for my anxiety disorder which makes my life hell. But they said they wouldn't authorize my absence until i started phoning in sick and now they do this.

I feel like my college supports those with other problems such as autism and dyslexia, but neglects people with mental health issues. It's pretty ironic considering they always preach to "respect and understand diversity" and to "give everyone a fair chance".

I am so unhappy and this has made me feel physically sick. I can't bring them evidence and they should know this. I told them before I can't go to a doctor about my anxiety, so why do they expect me to give them a note?

I realize this is the standard procedure that the college does for everyone, but my anxiety is a mental health issue. It brings me major mental pain every day. It's hard enough to get in every morning and trying to ignore my anxiety all day. When things happen that I know I can't cope with I avoid them and then they punish me for my anxiety disorder. If i went in an presented I'd have a mental break down in front of everyone and never come in again out of fear of judgement. This really is my only option and the college just doesn't care/understand.