I think you suffer more because you are so well informed and you actually care about what is going on. Mixed in with depressive bipolar episodes and down you go to a place that is dark. Enjoying the little things in life is the ideal way to stay alive and maybe even enjoy it.
Most people are so apathetic that they don't know or even care about the serious things going on in the world.

I am fairly well informed and a very sensitive person so I have been suffering a lot from what I have come to call War Stress Disorder and it does cause me great mental and physical stress. Sometimes it's tough to care when no one else does, I feel like quitting my ongoing search for the truth and to just become another sheep in the flock, but I know I can't actually do that.

I hope that all made sense I have not had any sleep for a while because of the above.