Last night wasn't fun. Not at all. Ended up crying myself to sleep. When I woke up, my face was actually glued to the pillow. This morning doesn't feel much better.

I want OUT of this sheethole city!!!!!!! Not now, last effing year!!!!!!!!!!! I can't get out. I'm stuck. Can't go west, that would put me 700 miles from my mom, not going to do that. Hard enough to get over there now. Can't go east (hometown, different state), because the hurdles are immense and would take a minimum of 2yrs if not more. And, I don't know what that place is like now. When I moved away in 1985, it was the most progressive city in the state. Today it could be as big of a sheethole as this city is.

If it's a sheethole, I'd be just as miserable there as I am here. And without a car, I'd still be up the creek without a paddle.