I don't think there is anything " wrong" with how you're feeling .

Life is up and down in the middle , least is for me.

Ones reality isn't like anyone else's.

The situations you deal with are so unlike anything here in the USA ( thus far) that I have front and center, I am amazed that you manage so well.

I don't think I'll get another 5 years ...why?!? I dunno gut feeling I think.

I think I just rambled