Hi im Cale ive dealt with mental illness and medicine since I was 17 I am currently 21. The past year I was finally diagnosed with the right illness after years of wrong diagnoses with another doctor for years. I have been on lamictal for the whole time that I have been with my new doctor which has leveled me out. I was also put on rexulti about 5 months or so. We ended up on 4 mg and I was drugged up so much I couldn't stand it so we backed it back down to 1 which has helped to think more clear the same with vyvanse which has been a dream for me. I have tried anti deppresents which kicks me into manic overdrive. Also klonipin and others for anxiety that kicked me into depression overdrive that has sent me to the hospital. Im currently on Rexult, Lamictal, and Vyvanse. I never really have time to talk or get complete answers to help that's why im here. Im at the place that's pretty my last ditch effort to get help. Some of my main concerns are my relationship ive completely lost intrest even though I love her I snap at her and family members and feel irritable. I have sought after sexual adventures. Here in the past month I have started a bad mixed episode. I never really understood if I have rapid cycling or mixed. The past month ive been so iratible I cant stand it I go from wanting to do everything I can do to opening a bottle of pills on my bed. I told my doctor and he gave me saphris to try and it absolutely made me a lot worse so I stopped today after 3 doses. I really want to get educated and want someone to help me better understand and talk it out with me never really had that. my family has history of mental illness and my papaw has bipolar. I just wanna know what meds have worked for mixed bipolar and what I can do to just truly understand whats going on I recently started college and I want to be succseful just don't want this to get in the way thank you have a good day