[QUOTE=BipolaRNurse;5467040]I still say you need to go to the hospital and be admitted for the sake of your safety and health. You clearly need more help than you can get in the community or from us here at PC. I'm worried about you. Please go.[/QUOTE

I am sorry but can i ask why other than the SH related thoughts you think i need to go to hospital? I am a bit confused. does that mean this is a bad weird?