Worse and better at the same time. Sure, I've got my coping techniques down pretty good and I'm able to keep myself in line for the most part. However, it seems as though my mental health has deteriorated rapidly since I was diagnosed over a year ago. I don't even function outside of the very basics, much like a child (all over again). It's frustrating for me considering I'd always been proud of myself for the single fact of "being able to take care of business". Now, I can hardly go on an errand if I have to leave my car and wonder into a densely populated area. I can't work anymore and I gave up on my education. I feel very washed up, anymore.
I don't know. I'm pretty close to giving up, at this point. I keep saying "I won't. I'm not going anywhere" but I'm starting to having trouble believing it myself.
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"Give him his freedom and he'll remember his humanity."
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