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Originally Posted by Só leigheas
Worse and better at the same time. Sure, I've got my coping techniques down pretty good and I'm able to keep myself in line for the most part. However, it seems as though my mental health has deteriorated rapidly since I was diagnosed over a year ago. I don't even function outside of the very basics, much like a child (all over again). It's frustrating for me considering I'd always been proud of myself for the single fact of "being able to take care of business". Now, I can hardly go on an errand if I have to leave my car and wonder into a densely populated area. I can't work anymore and I gave up on my education. I feel very washed up, anymore.
I don't know. I'm pretty close to giving up, at this point. I keep saying "I won't. I'm not going anywhere" but I'm starting to having trouble believing it myself.
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I know it's frustrating and seems there's no light at the end of the tunnel most of the time. That everything we try doesn't work or fights us. I think the thing to look at is that this has been going on with us for a long time. Though I just recently was diagnosed and it was brought to my attention. I think before I was diagnosed it was easier to bounce back. But now that I know it's a mental health condition it's harder to pull my big girl panties up and move on. Plus this time it seems so much darker. I'm not giving up because there are some small things that I enjoy doing and I want to make an all out effort to do these things once the weather gets better. A little bit of enjoyment is better than none. I owe it to myself and to the people who love me. It hurts them so much to see me hurting, I get that and know how that feels. So giving up is not even an option, and shouldn't be for anyone. But if you ever think you can't deal with it anymore please ask for help. We are here for you, believe that.