I am feeling a bit on the better side today but also bad at the same time I dont know it is still all jumbled I guess anyway I looked at more fish I today I am going to get my water tested later and if it is all clear I am buying some fish it is very exciting. I have no idea how much money I have spent though I also still have that weird feeling like I want to be "free" like I need to be with nature or something it is hard to explain.