Sorry you are struggling. If you'd like can you map out the practical means that you have or are missing to leave and go back to where you do have friends and family?

Like what prevents you each day from picking up the phone calling some relatives in your home country packing a bag and leaving? We can't tell where you are but you can get from anywhere in the world to Canada for about 2000 bucks tops.

You posted your story on several Internet message boards and this is been going on for a couple years. I think it would be great if you could you identify all the practical and psychological and other barriers that prevent you from changing the situation and list them out and work to cross each off so that you can get away.

Please continue to share. You will find good support here. Thanks.

moogs