Sometimes I smile and say it because I want it to be true and I hope that if I just say it enough times it might come true.
Sometimes I do it because I'm just too tired to tell the truth.
Sometimes I say it because it's really none of their damn business.
Sometimes I fake it because I'm scared that if I start telling them the truth eventually this torrent of words and feelings will come gushing out and I'll lose myself in the flood.
And sometimes I say it because if I told the truth they might lock me away.
Sometimes the mask is my very good friend
And sometimes it's my worst enemy.
My problem is I can't always tell those times apart