Today seemed like a weird day. At first when I entered into work, there was a Fire Engine with it's lights going. It was a false alarm. And then I was told by a co-worker (the maintenance man who will be off next month) that there's going to be a lunch meeting with pizza from our manager. I was never informed of that. I kept milling over in my mind - why is it that they don't tell me things that I need to know about?

I fixed lunch that I brought and had cooked and ate it at 12:30; figuring that the manager was not going to come. I still had not heard from anyone about the lunch. It turned out that I was called into the meeting at 12:50. I didn't have room to eat pizza since I had finished my lunch.

Then I felt like I had put my foot in my mouth. I felt like I said something that I shouldn't have said. It was about the maintenance man going to be off and what's going to happen. I said that I'm not very well experienced in doing his work. I have never been trained in it and there's a whole lot to it. It's never been my line of work.

Also I mentioned that I made lunch because no one told me about the pizza for lunch and the meeting. At the end of the day, I was feeling like I might get let go from work. I felt so bad about myself.