I'm 36, male, UK based. I've suffered from depression on and off for a few years, but I've always thought of it as linked to my lifestyle rather than anything to do with brain chemistry or physiological differences in me. When I am lonely and isolated, as I am now, I am depressed. When I was in a relationship a couple of years ago I mostly wasn't. So I've always thought that depression could be fixed by sorting my life out and I have never sought medical help.

At the moment I am as bad as I have been. Mentally, I often feel like I have a weight bearing down on my brain that occurs at the same time as a feeling of hopelessness. I've lost 7 lbs in weight in the last month, I'm not taking care of myself, work is suffering, nothing that would usually make me happy has much effect.

For various reasons I don't want to see a doctor, so I am thinking about buying some generic prozac online. I hope that it will give me a lift, I can see value in living again and get work back on track and stop my spiral towards god knows what.

Can anyone relate to this? Anyone in a similar situation seen results? Anything I should be aware of? Is buying prozac online for international delivery legal in the UK does anyone know?

Edit to add: I've done a bit of Googling and think that buying prescription medication online from abroad for personal use is legal. So I've ordered some. Also interested to know what sort of effect I can expect. How will it feel, how long will it take etc.