'At some point you'll start to doubt your own sanity, you will doubt your own reality....and at that point it will be a LOT harder to leave.

Its situations like this that can cause PTSD.....so I am doubting that you have it now (given that its this psycho who is "diagnosing" you with all sorts of random things), but if you don't get out, you could indeed develop PTSD in the future from all this abuse.'

I'm so aware and yet numb to this now, my whole life has been crushed, he basically relentlessly impressed upon me that the entire world is a mess that everyone is sick, narcissistic, mentally ill, all women are mentally ill(not him though, he's the exception), that ambitions and wants and agendas in life get us nowhere, that basically unless I devoted and dedicated my entire life to him and loving him my life would be wasted and that was the reason that we met and why were brought together...um...I'm going to stop because I could write so much but it will only be venting, theres nothing else that will make the situation any different and I've been told repeatedly both now and in the past that this is insanity and that I hav to leave and thats really my focus right now, getting through that and the aftermath. <3