I'm 19 and I have a problem where I have to have attention. It's like a drug I need it and I get the urges and feelings to somehow go out and get it. I don't like doing this but to get attention I usually do something purposely to get in trouble or I guess you can say I manipulate people also. I do have feelings for people I just use them to satisfy my craving for attention. I can't stop it and if I don't get it I get depressed and I hate that. Last week I punched a wall several times just to break my hand and get attention it's the first time I ever done something to hurt myself. I did succeed and I had to go to the hospital, but right after I broke my knuckles I didn't want attention anymore. It was like the feeling was gone so two days later when I felt like I needed attention I did the same thing and the feeling went away. The third time I hurt myself was to make the attention seeking urges and feeling go away, and again it worked. I would like to know if this could be a start to self injuring myself on a regular basis? Even though I feel like I can stop anytime and go back to doing the regular things I did to get attention.