Everyone tells me I'm beautiful and radiate natural beauty and I'm repeatedly told I don't need makeup and I look good with any hair color other than black, but neither guys nor girls want to date me. I have full dark eyebrows, long dark lashes, beautiful blue eyes, perfect lips and nose, but I have never had a relationship. Sex, yes, but always on their terms (yes, I have always consented but I mean they tell me what to do and few have asked if I'm enjoying it).

I've always been jealous of my brother because he is both ridiculously good looking and extremely charismatic. I swear to god my brother is a Brad Pitt lookalike and I'm this ugly troll with "natural beauty". Ever since he was little my parents would say, "all the chicks dig D" and no one has ever taken a second glance at me. I understand why all the girls flock to him and why he's such a chick magnet. Meanwhile I'm socially awkward and I rarely act my age around people I like. I'm very mature but I feel like when I'm with someone I like I act childish. I'm very forward, open, and honest with people I like and I'm not afraid to ask them out or if they're interested in me, but for me I want to be with someone who's not afraid to be a total dork and be goofy weirdos when we're together. I think I can be off-putting because I'm very open about my sexuality and my fantasies involve gay men and I would like to use a strap on with my partner one day whether it be a man or a woman, and maybe they don't get that it's just a fantasy and I want to be with someone who can reciprocate romantic feelings.

I don't know where I'm going with this. I guess it's just a rant. But why can't I get anyone to like me?