I try to stay positive too when I talk to my parents...very sad that they are the only people I have a conversation with and as time goes by we talk less and less. Idk what happens to people like us...why life has played out like this for us...I wish I could at least have an explanation for this extreme sadness and loneliness...but I just try to do some things that make me happy...take a walk...go to the beach...watch a movie...try to find a glimmer of happiness in this bleak world.