Right now in life, I'm suffering, I can't Invision myself living any longer and I feel stuck where I am. I don't know what to do with life and I'm scared. The thought of dying scares me also but sometimes it seems like a better option to this, but sometimes I wonder if I actually want to go through with it or if it's just a way to show other people I'm actually suffering and just want it to be an attempt. I have researched many suicide methods from jumping to cutting and overdose and a couple others and I think I'm pretty solid in my knowledge of them to know which ones work. I keep trying to tell myself that it will get better but I know it won't. I do want help but I don't think I will be taken seriously enough if I'm don't have an attempt under my belt, so to say. I know that sounds morbid, but its the only thing i can think about.