yes Rose that's true, everything you guys have said is very true, you're right..I have for a long time thought I could make him see differently but I've come to terms with that, as for my safety yes it's not comfortable being here at all and I don't plan to tell him when exactly I'm leaving just to do it, I'll take minimal of my things and go, it's so difficult though, um...he has been trying to kiss and touch me all night and I don't want this, I asked him please not to touch me and could we just stay amicable until I have to leave but now he's gone into a rage and telling me that I'm an abuser and that he should never have let me into his life, that I destroy lives, I will continue to destroy lives, that I prey on people, raging and ranting...that I'm a borderline inverted narcissist, that I'm a ***** a deciever, a siren, I preyed on him and trapped him, I never loved him...my life will fail, I will destroy everything I touch....he can't stop, he can't leave me be, he cannot do anything apart from spew insidious hurtful, hatefulness...it's ....powerful...and I wonder what is it the person wants, what is it that he wants? He is angry and doesn't want me to leave but his way to express that is to torment me and abuse me until I have no choice? How does this exist? I've met people like this before, and I always wonder - what do they truly feel inside?