If you talk to the right people, they'll take you seriously. Any nurse, doctor or therapist worth their salt would see that you need help. You wouldn't have to attempt. Have you ever used a hotline before? They can sometimes be good to talk to about these things and they're always more than willing to get you information about a good therapist you might be able to afford in your area. What you just said here, constitutes taking your situation extremely seriously. I don't want you to even attempt because what if you actually succeed? And if you don't succeed, what permanent damage could you be left with; brain damage or worse? Listen, it's not worth it. You do need help but I don't want you to get it after it's already too late. And sure, you want attention for people to notice that you're in so much pain; but that doesn't excuse the pain causing you to even question whether or not you want to die. Attention or no attention, you're hurting. Your pain deserves to be treated. You deserve to heal.