I know I'm an addict, I hate hurting everyone I love seeing the pain in their faces and disappointing them when I relapse but I can't quit as hard ad I try I'm just never ready, please don't suggest suboxone I don't believe I'm using that to get clean, but i can always get through the with drawls cold turkey ( even tho its the worst thing in the world ) I can stop for either a few days, a few weeks but never longer then 2 months its pure hell and I can't afford it and I'm done with the pain and depression it makes me go through plz help