If you could possibly turn this anger toward the depression itself. Put this incredible energy you have in a direction toward learning about depression and how these different medicines can react. I know you want to distract yourself from the pain. We are here for that, and can love you through it all. Commiserate with us. I haven't had your exact experiences but have felt obsessive thoughts. Having a place to vent everything was a lifeline for me. Perhaps it can be for you too. [emoji173]