Group reply,

I am sorry I was a B last night. Pain is like that I am afraid.

So here is my story, not necessarily in order. Money probs, impossible ones. Cell phone turned off and my college daughter with OCD depends on it. I don't know when I can get it turned back on.

I applied SSD finally. Seems my PTSD has really worsened.

My little girl. She was taken Aug 30th, moved her again to the place she begged me never to make her go again. I am still in the level 1 hearing, was supposed to know a week ago. Licensing went over us with a fine tooth comb and we are fine with them, that took a month. So I have been waiting. And one of my issues is people in authority, power who lie, manipulate, hurt me. That would be the DCF people. So I have fallen off the roof so to speak and have been quite ill to boot.

Today the woman charged with making the decision if baby comes home will call me and discuss more findings she got after speaking with the people who i consider dishonest lying hurtful people. I hope I can speak well to her. Articulate well.

As to not having a purpose. Yes, need to get back on that sheep again and start fiber working, or horse riding. Something. Too hard right now.

I have my dogs on me and you folks don't know a therapist that I went to see after baby left, her new therapist she never met, told me to get a puppy, of course she didn't know there were 4 at home but now there are 5, Jack Russell Jilly Beans. 4.5 months maybe? I do love her.

My son moved as far away as he could and still be in this country, and believe it or not I miss him too, and worry. Long story there but legal issues. He is a subcontractor, painting and hasn't a clue about how this all is going to get complicated come tax time. I hope he listens.

So this is where I am and I feel 17 again, needing so much support constantly. Thanks for not being buggers about it.

Oh yeah, and we lost our insurance so that I can't pay for meds. Very scarey messing with my meds like that. I am working on solutions, and I am tired.