WHAT IS THE FIRST F*CKING HEALTHY STEP?!??!?!?!? I AM INSANE!!! I NEED DRUGS!!! I NEED SEDATIVES!!! Sorry, I don't want to swear, but in my 27 years of life I never, ever felt not even nearly like this! Sorry... sorry........................... I don't know I don't know what to do! I can literally empty all the psych medicine in house I can just to fall asleep! It's tormenting me! I am crying whole day... Can barely see what I am writing. What happened to me? I won't hurt anybody... Not physically!!! I will kill myself only!!!