I'm constantly trying not to disappoint my parents and my boyfriend. My limiting factor recently has been time. I spend almost all of it studying and working, I skip meals sometimes - it is extremely exhausting.

My parents always find a way to tell me my boyfriend is not good enough for me because they don't see him looking for ways to save me the time that I need to spend studying.

My boyfriend knows I have a fear of talking to my parents. I don't know how to defend him when my parents are saying negative things about him. I barely know how to stand up for myself. I know this disappoints my boyfriend that I'm not able to back him up, and righteously so.

I think I have been asserting myself by making choices with what to do with my time. So that's a plus.

But there is always that underlying nagging feeling telling me "I'm not coming home as early as my parents want me to (they're concerned I don't sleep enough)" or "I'm not doing enough work for my company and my bosses are going to think I am a slacker" or "I'm not making time to see my friends, they must think I am a horrible friend who never spends time with them anymore."

Thoughts of that nature bog me down on certain days. That I'm not good enough because I'm unable to do everything like superwoman or something. I know it's not because I don't try hard enough. I just wish I had more hours in a day so that I could do more.

I don't know if this makes any sense. My whole life I feel like I am disappointing people. I'm tired.