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Originally Posted by zijax
Day 1 sober today. I relapsed again, wound up SI, got drunk and in a fight with bf, friend took me to detox/psyche ward. I have no insurance. I don't know how I'm going to pay for it, probably $6000.00. They didn't give me meds for 3 days. It was a waste of time. Came home and drank for another week. This morning I woke up sick and shaking, planning a beer run and I started to think about my life and how it's getting worse and worse. I decided to wait 20 minutes to get the beer. Then after the 20 minutes was up I decided to wait an hour and so far I've made it all day. I am very sick and I need a drink but I want my life back more. I broke up with bf today bc we always trigger each other to drink. I'll never be able to stay sober if I'm with him.
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They say you have to "hit bottom" before you decide that you might have a drinking problem. It sounds like you've hit a bottom...So the only way to go is up. One day sober is huge...It sounds like you've been through a lot lately & it would be easy to get a case of the "---- its" & drink over things. Fact is, you're not. You're identifying your triggers & are trying to stay sober just for today. Eventually, if you stay focused on each day of sobriety, you'll dig yourself out & be "happy, joyous & free," believe it, or not. Keep us posted...