Thank you to all who've shared their input.

I don't think it's the men who is the problem. I think it is me. I have a very high sex drive for a woman plus bipolar so I crave sex but ultimately I want a relationship. Perhaps I have a horrid thinking that sex could lead to a relationship, but I know that a relationship should ideally come before sex. However, I'm horrified of Tinder because I do want to get to know the person before I have sex with them and I ultimately want a relationship rather than a one night stand.

I will list in detail my sexual partners and perhaps potential partners and maybe you can see the flaws I have.

My first two sexual encounters were with gay men. Obviously, there was no romance, but it was my fantasy and it was their curiosity of wanting the experience. They were very close friends that I had known for years and we knew that it would be only a sexual encounter with someone we trusted and cared about and to be honest was the best sex I've ever had.

Then there was E, who was someone I had a crush on since high school. We hooked up at a party and afterwards he told me he was not into a relationship. Last year we hooked up again but again, he was not into a relationship as he was fresh out of an abusive relationship. Honestly, if he pops up again I will not have sex with him again unless he wants a relationship.

Then there was a girl and her boyfriend that I had a threesome with. She was a coworker who approached me about wanting a threesome and it got ugly when her bf became psychotically jealous and she quit her job and I never saw her again.

Then there was T, who we intended to have a relationship with each other. The first time he told me the commute was too far, the second time he was distraught because his dog died.

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Then there was N, a current coworker of mine, he wanted a relationship but suffers from depression and called it off.