Mouse my thoughts are with you as you go through this process. You are certainly working on another level than I am right now. I can't imagine what might be going on with me subconsciously. My conscious thoughts are troubling enough at the moment. I certainly would not want to sit face-to-face with my subconscious. It sounds like really hard work.

Simply letting someone in to the dark crevasse of your mind seems like it would be very unsettling to say the least. Let alone allowing them reflect what they see back to you and then talk about it. Hmm...

You mentioned the difference between talking about horrid events and what you are doing now. Seems to me that talking about things and allowing yourself to experience them again are on two totally different levels. I am sooo way far away from this! I admire your courage.

Honestly, after reading this I am re-evaluating if I can live with remaining emotionally dead. Even though I have no idea what lies beyond my perception, I can tell you this-- I would not want to see it manifest itself physically. I think I would start hating my T.

I think you have good reason to be shaken by this experience and to be repeatedly asking her to explain what is going on. I would not feel bad about the possibility of annoying her. She is taking you here, she should be ready and willing to deal with the fallout.