Once, you showed a picture of your face and a post and I really thought you looked beautiful--your face did not give the appearance of being overweight. However, it is important to keep our weights stable for many obvious reasons. I have always found that I have to exercise in order to maintain my weight and it helps me sleep too.

I recently reached out to some old friends online but, of course, I'm never going to discuss my mental health issues with them. I feel like I can only do it here and that makes me feel connections to people here that seem "different" but good. But perhaps we should limit our time here in order to free up time to achieve other goals. I have learned a lot from many of the posts here, so it is not all wasted time when we come here.

I agree with your observations about not wanting your social relationships to be all about alcohol anymore, I also came to the realization that all the alcohol I was drinking was harming me in many ways. I do think that spending time online is much better for us than the drinking was so don't be to hard on yourself about that.

I assume everyone yearns for things they do not have. Life is about striving I guess. We can relate....